Tough Week.

Birthday Shout Out: Aunt Karen! Me favorite-est Aunt Karen in the whole world, Happy Birthday!

This past week has been slightly sweet, but mostly sour. Come to think of it, these past six months have been slightly sweet, with excess sour.
The Sweet Things this week:
The weather has been just gorgeous these past few days. It's in the 80's today and everything is trilling with spring. Every window is open, every plant is thriving and it's a felony to stay indoors.
I finished my Triumvirate piece this week. It turned out better than I expected, but not as good as I had hoped. Which is what happens a lot. I still have to scan it in and portfolio it...but the hard work is done.
I've been song writing this week, which is a good thing. But that's where the sour slips in. It's a melancholy song about just one of the sore parts of my life right now. Lately, (since October of last year) I've just been feeling trapped. A lot of things have happened to wear me down and break my heart. I won't really go into details and stuff because one, it's still too close and raw for me to post all over the internet. And two, it would take a long time...Pretty much I've just been having a tough time, and in a hopeless sense, it doesn't look like it's going to clear up in a long while.
On top of it I caught the flu, which knocked me down on more level. Sunday night I was just lying in bed sobbing because my body hurt almost as bad as my soul did.
Phew. Hard times...
If there is anybody that actually reads this (and I doubt there are many, if any at all) please pray for me. I've been praying so much, but it might help if God heard one more voice on my behalf. I would be so grateful.
I usually hate asking for prayer. My humanness regards it as weak and vulnerable. It's hard to admit that you would like some help. At other times I'm reluctant to ask for prayer because I'm afraid that I'm trying to draw pity and attention from people. I tell them the "oh so awfuls" and the "it's so bads" and then chalk it up as a prayer request. Sometimes we twist prayer into all sorts of things we shouldn't twist it into.
But this time, I really just need help. And prayer is a very good form of help.
Thanks.